My second song Im posting Rain Storm, my cousin did this background for me and emailed it so I am singing, unlike the other where i am performing both :)
Escape:
Goodbye
Tonight I cry
Ill miss you
Im not going to lie
It hurts like hell
Without you…
Why did you have to go so soon?
I love you
My pain now will never stop
I know holding it in isn’t smart
But Im just so scared
Im trying so hard not to fall apart
My heart is shattered
My dreams are my fears.
I can’t think straight,
Im sick of the tears.
Im falling apart…
Tearing at the seems,
My thoughts turn into
Heart-breaking screams…
The pain I feel,
The blood I bleed,
The last thing you said to me..
The last message I’ll read.
Deep black stares…
And desperate cries.
Running from reality,
Fantasy fills my eyes.
Day dreaming of happy days,
Going blind..
I close my eyes.
And try to escape.. my mind.
The world around us, Is nothing more than mere shadows. The shadows of black and white. Until those with eyes, Open them to the life filled world around, The earth the simply surrounds. The purple flowers, The yellow sun. Green grasses, And blue sky’s. Our world is colored, As God perceived it to be. Us as people have images, Those we create in imaginations. We are without color, But we color the world around us. A label not meant for human beings, Slithered into mouths, Of those who colored the Imaginations, Before the images.
How come every song I write
Plays out in black and white?
How come every word I sing
Has the same meaning?
When my life was turned around
She was tall, she was thin, she was out of this world
And she didn’t make a sound.
I put the magazine down and I started to frown
As I sat on my bed alone
I’m not pretty or perfect, not tall and not thin
And my clothes aren’t nice as those.
But someday I suppose
On the outside we saw her smile,
Lip gloss, cherry red
On the inside we didn’t know
The hurt, the pain, the dread
The rain is falling down
Shes waiting to be found
Open your eyes and see
Who you were made to be
Raise up your hands and pray:
God show me what you see today
Now that its all said and done,
Don’t be afraid to put your dream in action
Just follow your imagination,
You’re gonna be the main attraction
Each one with a different memory
Telling a different story
Listen to me now,
Saying it out loud
some people hope to find
something extraordinary in
turning one page at a time
Dont be sorry if you dont
play the melody just right
i just want you to show
me one more song tonight
Im hesitant to say it,
I wish it was so easy,
As just saying it, just a little bit.
Forever was yourself and me…
No more can we be together.
So much pain…
Im sorry for this hurt.
I wish it was so simple and plain.
Im thinking maybe..
I should say goodbye to me..
Than friends that equal us, can still be.
Just in a different way you see..
Im so so sorry :’(
Drifting in and out of consciousness hoping to be pulled back into my lovely reverie….so much better than reality ever could be….
A little girl
Only five
no one even cares
That she’s alive
Her mom and dad
Swear and scream
She wants to believe
Its just a horrible dream
They tell her she’s worthless
Tell her she’s been bad
They Lock her away
Scared and sad
She doesnt understand
What did she do wrong?
So she lays down
And sings herself a song
Waiting for them
To come home tonight
Hoping and wishing
Things will be alright
Her dad was drunk
Her mom was high
They unlock the door
They want her to die
She pushes herself against a wall
Trying so hard to hide
But they hit her and beat her
The love she wanted was denied
The bruises and scars
Showed the story of her life
But her life ended
On that sad night
They hit her too hard
She was so small
Her bones so fragile
Broke, when she hit the wall
All she wanted was love
She never knew
Why didnt they want her?
Why didnt they love her too?
It started as a small idea
Only a few pounds I thought
I wanted to be beautiful
Soon though, a battle I fought
It was easy at first
Not eating a thing
Giving me a forbidden control
To my sanity I cling
Too soon I was obsessed
With what the mirror told
Anorexia, my love
To you my soul I’ve sold
Taking over my life
Crushing my dreams
Numbing my heart
Silencing my screams
Making me so weak
Even through the deceit
Even though I can barely move
I still cant bring myself to eat
Craving the control I get
But spiraling down so fast
Living on water for days
“can I please eat?” is all I asked
I cant escape from dark despair
I cant live like this for long
My romance with anorexia
Made everything turn out wrong.
